Dear Dr Toby
I always enjoying reading your articles and seeing you on tv so I really hope you can help me understand what my nightmare is all about.
I started having nightmares after I attended the funeral of an old school friend three weeks ago.
My nightmares normally start off like happy regular dreams but they always change, and I know the change is about to happen when the spiders appear.
I can’t remember the dreams clearly and they are always different, but the spiders always come and then they become nightmares.
Following the advice in your book I placed a notepad beside the bed last night, and when I woke up I wrote down everything I could remember and I hope it is enough for you to decipher what it means and how I can move on.
The words I wrote down were: sunshine, meadow, picnic, friends, wine, meat pie, SPIDERS SPIDERS SPIDERS, scream, black cloud, thunder, flee, lost, where’s Jenny, alone, cold.
What does it all mean Dr Toby? Please help.
A fan in distress
Laura
Dear Laura,
Firstly, can I say thank you for your lovely comments, it’s always nice to hear from a genuine fan.
Secondly let me pass on my condolences to you on the passing of your friend and reassure you that in times of grief it is entirely normal to experience these kind of nightmares.
Despite the evidence of studies carried out by some of my colleagues, let me reassure you that this is not always the sign of an impending, potentially violent, psychological breakdown.
The fear of spiders, or arachnophobia, as we, in the trade, call it, is not uncommon and can often manifest itself in our dreams, especially when these dreams have been triggered by the death of someone close, someone that we had deep feelings for.
You don’t mention whether you and your friend, Jenny, had been in contact before her untimely demise, but I am sensing that you may’ve had unfinished business.
I am guessing that there were things that you’d longed to tell her but now will never have the chance to, perhaps a longing which now will never be fulfilled?
The notes on your pad reinforce this hypothesis, the fact that your dream started with you happily picnicking with Jenny in the sunshine, no doubt a memory from your school days.
Both of you lying on the ground in your skimpy summer dresses, the sunlight filtering through the leaves, highlighting the freckles on Jenny’s luminescent skin as you gaze on adoringly, feeding her scotch eggs and sausage rolls, watching her intently as she licks the crumbs from her plump, luscious lips.
Then all of a sudden the scene changes, black clouds and thunder, you look and Jenny, the person with whom you felt most comfortable, the person who understood you like no boy ever could, is gone, you feel alone and as if everyone you’ve ever loved has abandoned you.
Unfortunately death is the flip-side of the coin of life and something that we all need to come to terms with, I would suggest joining a women’s group where you can make new female friends and move on.
Hope this helps,
Dr Toby